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sry i didn't update for so long...i guess i was just lazy.. =x
anyway we quarrelled over missed calls today!...so lame..baby scolded me for giving him miss calls...i was just pissed too so next time i won't ever ever call him..if he misses me,then call me yourself (: so don't say that i don't miss you..its your own fault~


ysd,after 12 AGAIN!!..baby and me met up and he brought me to meet my supplier to get the contact lens washing machine!..so cute and tiny lor..then before that we went to eat..and then after we ate,he sent me to the venue then i wanted to bite him cos he say me siao char bo then i got onto his bike and then wanna bite him then he souted very loudly at me,i cried..because i was sad and also scared..i don't like ppl shouting at me or being fierce at me as i will really cry..then it rained all of a sudden and he brought me to his house..watch some anaconda show and reconciled!..(: ..hurmph..nu hai zi shi na lai ai he teng de but then he wasn't the one who started to do things to show that he wanted me to forgive him for shouting at me lor..sian..at least you can just hug me and say sorry?..but you just watch your anaconda show..don even noe wad a girl wants..hais..when will you understand?..watch more drama?..LOLS


ysd,cos after 12am AGAIN!!..i went to bugis alone..buy clothes then go with kor..after that i call baby and told him i at bugis..he very stoopid one..i hint him to come he oso donno..lols..then he bought me slippers nar and then brought me to eat lunch..after that jiu go home le..boring day..


ysd..cos its after 12am again,my baby met me to go for night walk with sheryl,esther and sheryl's fat fat doggy!..yay..i finally dare to touch darling girl's fat fat doggy.so cute..my boyfriend said he don wanna walk so he went to eat and didn't join us ): then he went to boat quay at 10pm..till 1 plus..was supposed to buy me food for my medicine to stop pain but nvm lar..wait so long le..pain oso pain till numb le.. a little while of pain till morning oso nvm..since he oso don care,i'm really tired of all the waiting le..he wan go home le oso never even call me..anyway i was supposed to go to attend my friend's bd party too but didn't go bcos all guys ): hahas..i said i wanted to go then my baby say wanna go too one lor,but with his friends..he doesn't trust me at all..i thought things would change you noe but i guess i was wrong..very wrong ): but its okay..it just shows that he loves me but i really tink its over the extreme already..sometimes?..but seriously i'm jealous eh..hahas..but its okay..ppl need their own time once in a while..and so do i..so i hope you understand..


ysd,cos its after 12am (: i went to baby's house (: and ate delicious duck rice at his house nearby (: yay!...then baby gave me a SIM card for me to use for my blogshop and also lend me his phone as he got 3 days off his work and also cos my phone spoil ): shortly after that we went home already ): he went to play pool and i stayed home..then went to my block downstairs to get some stationary for my homework then baby called frantically but i didn't hear as i put silent ): then baby blame me..i tink he's angry but he say he's worried cos i never picked up..is it because he still doesn't trust me?..well then...don trust me bahhsx (: i'm okay de..hahas..


today,baby boy came and look for me for lunch below my block (: a coffee shop which we often patronised but was too busy to do so ever since baby started working (: aniwae..after that baby went to buy a phone with me but too bad..because need my dad's ic and his presence before i can get the phone!..aww..then baby and me went to eat andersen's ice cream!..yay!...so nice!..aniwae..he's buying me the phone..lols!..after that,we went home le..ime passed really quickly though ):
I MISS YOU BABY!..(:


today,i had napfa test!..omgg!..another gold for me (: i got As for all the five stations except standing broad jump,which i got a C for..sad ): not including the 2.4 run yet :p ..but i'm confident (: and i didn't get to meet my beloved today ): he was busy fixing some home theatre thingy with his friend at home ): sad sad..but i understand that you're busy with ur own stuff too (: well,its okay..absence makes our heart grow fonder..and i believe in that saying..though i really miss you..aww..nvm (: there's still tomorrow!..i'm so tired now..yawn..gotta go take a nap le (:
BABY,I'M MISSING YOU!..ARE YOU?..hahas...i woke up and its the continued version!..my baby bought me two pairs of earrings which i liked (: yay!..so happy..i love you so much..


yesterday,me and baby went to his house to bath before setting off to his and his friend's pool tournament at boat quay's bardot!..yay...he was in the semi-finals and so was his friend..we met his friend at jurong for dinner after i bathed and changed at his house..then,his friend went to some hospital to see his friend who was in an accident with a car..omgg..so we went seperate ways and went to ah wee's house to deliver him his dinner..at commonwealth..hahas..he just bought a new bike and it was like wow..so all my baby's friends have big bikes now except him and he asked me if he should buy one too..baby,i got no comments as long as you're able to afford it k?..(: hahas..then we met another friend of his whom i call big mole and set off to boat quay for the tournament..then they sped almost like all the way,scary!..then there was this old man WHO WAS JAY-WALKING!..baby almost knocked him down lar!...like ughh!..he wiuld've been badly hurt and baby could've gotten into BIG TROUBLE!..luckily he stopped in time if not things would've been bad..most fun of all was when ah wee and big mole raced against an evo!..my baby was obviously slower as his bike is smaller..i was like in a live race nar!..so fun!..but scary too...cos i tink it was the fastest speed my baby has ever gone with me on his bike (: then we reached bardot and wei wen's tournament begun.. then baby and ah wee went somewhere and came back with a scarred leg cos he burnt himself while alighting ah wee's bike..LOLS!..but he lost with a score of 4-5..then me and wei wen sang song and all of us drank some beer..it was sooo close..then it was baby's turn!..i prayed for him hard but he still lost to a score of 4-5,he was really sad though but its okay as there's always a next time! (: then baby and me sung the first duet song that we did when we first got tgt (: it's okay even if you lost cos YOU'RE STILL MINE AND I STILL LOVE YOU! (:


yay!..BABY!!..I LOVE YOU!!..hahs..today,baby fetched me to amk MRT to meet a supplier tat pearlyn had bought cartoon tees from and also take the MP3 from pearlyn..then we went to our favourite restaurant at yishun again!!...ISIHI MURA!!..to eat the beef patty..hahas..hehe..then me and baby went to buy some stuff at the yishun shopping center and also window shop there to let time pass as we're meeting the buyer at marsiling only at 3pm and it was only 2pm..yay!..baby bought me fake nails for me and earsticks for himself..hehe..(: then after that we went to give the buyer her mickey MP3 that she bought frm pearlyn..hahas..she like soo excited lidat..baby dotes on me so much..bought me raw salmon at the jap restaurant cos he noe i like..but i was so full already then i didn't want to eat but he forced me ): hahas!..cos expensive nar..then don wanna waste it..loved it anyway!!..then baby keep on calling me his future wife then i kept on saying no no no!..cos too soon..hehe..then i told him you can only call me that when we're tgt for at least 2 years!..yay..kiss kiss! <3..


today,me,my mum and my best girlfriend made chocolates and chocolate chips cookies for me to sell online!..yay!...it was like soo yummy..hahas..and then after making the cookies and chocolates,i met my baby!..went to his house to finish watching the DVD that i watched halfway the other time..hahas..and then as usual,sleep together till i had to leave to go home (:
hahas..then my boyfriend's computer kinda had some error,then he became angry again..then shout and shout..hais..never changes..i was wondering if he'd become violent towards me someday,wanted to ask him but he sounded so fierce and scary..so i didn't pop the question to him ): really dissapointed eh..but at least he has quit smoking for me (: it's already quite good an outcome to me =D yup!..and he's gotten a job because of our future which is also good (:
hahas..BABY,DON'T LOSE YOUR TEMPER SO EASILY CAN?..I WILL SCARED EH..


today,or rather,yesterday at around 1.37am in the morning,my baby boy gave me another surprise again!..he spent another night with me (: sooo sweet!..hehe..its mainly because he saw the post that i wrote actually..he really loves me :D he actually came to accompany me although he had to work the next morning and had to wake up at 6.45 in the morning..and we just had a movie at 9.30 earlier on..hahas..went for pizza first with charmaine,her boyfriend,me,my boyfriend,carolyn and her date...yay!..3 couple dates!!..then me and carolyn..plus our dates of course,went to watch "17 again",the zac efron movie..hahas..its like soo funny and nice lar!..you people shld watch,if you have read my post..hehe..well well..then actually baby boy wanted me to go his house pei him one,but i can't cos my mum would find out,eventually ):
SORRY BABY,CANNOT PEI YOU!! >.<


ITS THE SECOND POST OF THE DAY!!..but a sad one for me..in the first post,he said that he wanted to meet me no matter what..i was out and so i wanted to wait for him actually and called him but in the end?...we never even meet because he is now worried that it'll be too late..how ironic is this?..first you say you wanna meet me first de..then in the end its also you who's afraid..i was angry so i told you to go home instead but in an angry tone,you should noe that i really want to meet you rite?..i don't understand why he can't figure my mind and probably just like many other girls out there..i was angry,of cos i didn't mean what i said..but whatever..hais..i guess 6 months plus is a short time for us and we don't understand what we're both thinking really..we're too different and i guess we can never make a change to that,which is also why we always quarrell,don't you think so?..i really don't noe how long more i can keep up with this or rather,we..


today,we kinda quarelled AGAIN..and two times..first,its because he wants to meet me today as we did not meet yesterday but he would be very late and could only spend dinner with me so i told him its okay..we don meet today but then he raised his voice and kept saying its okay and that he just wants to meet me no matter what..its not a matter of weather we can meet a not though..i was jus worried that he might feel tired after work and it would be troublesome as he had to drive the van to his company then his friend to get his bike for him from jurong to his workplace and fetch his friend back to his jurong...which meant that by the time he was able to meet me,it'd have been around 7 plus or 8 as he needs to bath too..the second quarrell was that me,carolyn and charmaine were going to play pool at central and then he was on the phone and told me to wear a t shirt..then i said it was very warm and i wanted to wear a spag..then he say later bend down will be exposed..and so..we quarrelled...then i said..AIYA..WEAR SHIRT LA..then i hung up his phone call..i mean wat's the big deal of wearing spag to play pool?..he just don't understand..so i was angry and ignored his calls..well well..i'm kinda sick of all these quarrells already..but i really have no idea what to do anymore..hais..i'm really sad you know?..


today,this will be the second post that i'll be typing and posting on my blog (:
because the previous post was about what happened yesterday and this is about what happened between us today (: well..sad thing is that I'VE FALLEN ILL AGAIN!..hais..i'm always sick and i don't really noe why..hahas..and so i didn't go to my CCA today because i was ill and so...i met my boyfriend after two hours of rest and sleep at home to go for dinner at our favourite japanese restaurant at yishun and to collect some stuff that i bought online!!..yeah!..and i got my I-BANKING THINGY TODAY!!..FINALLY..yup..am really excited to use it though...lols..then something happened when we reached my block downstairs..i was teasing him when he was dialling a phone number and that was when his phone dropped and there was scratches..he was sooo angry that he raised his voice slightly and shouted 'wah lao' then he threw the phone onto the floor again...and walked away..of cos i picked the phone up and then apologised to him,i felt sooo guilty,you wouldn't have known how i felt..but he seemed as if he didn't blame me though,but of cos i knew he was angry but jus didn't want me to feel bad..aww..I'M REALLY SORRY,BABY BOY..PLS DON'T BE ANGRY?..


yesterday,we came up with a plan..yup..we planned to get a dog only after he buys his car because i tot of smth very funny..hahas!..i was telling my friends the other day that i shld get a dog after my baby boy has got a car because it'll be troublesome if we wanna bring him/her out with us and it can't possibly sit a bike rite?..in case it FLIES AWAY!!..lols!!.. :p and then we said that we are going to open a joint account next month,to help him save money cos he's kinda a spendrift you know?..as in he really don't even noe where he spends on sometimes and i really can't bear to see this anymore so...yup..we came up with this plan to help him save money to get us a dog ,at least have some capital left after buying the car and also...GET ME A BURBERRY BAG FOR MY BIRTHDAY!!.. :D i rmb the first month when we were tgt,he didn't even take my birthda seriously because he said that after breakup still can celebrate birthdays but monthly anniversary only exsists when we two are tgt..i was quite angry and sad he said that and so i told him how i felt so this year..he'll take a serious view towards my birthday,RITE?..hahas!!..(:


today,its the first day of another new job for my darling baby boy!!..(:
was really excited for him so i kinda kept calling him to ask bout him but i tink i kinda ended up being a nuisance somehow.. =p and so..today we met and he brought me to my usual ballet lesson at night (: and then on saturday, HE GAVE ME A REAL SURPRISE!..OMGG!..baby boy came to my house at 2 plus in the morning and accompanied me to sleep (: because i wanted him to accompany me at first but it was late and he was at home already,feeling really tired so i said tat he didn't love me le ): then i was sleeping halfway when he called and i was really tired so i kinda hung up his call then HE OPENED MY ROOM WINDOW!!..and i was like..WAS IT A GHOST?!,then i jumped out of bed and saw him!!..then he said surprise and then gave me a kinderjoy!..cos he knows tat I LOVE KINDERJOY!!..(: i'm sooo happy bcos despite him being unwilling to spend nights with me in my room,he still came!!...aww..i was soo happy..i love him =D then we hugged and slep together as usual,with him beside me,the coldness of my room never makes me feel cold and neither does the emptiness of my room makes me feel empty anymore (: until he had to leave in the morning before my parents woke up,of course ): AWW BABY!...YOU'RE THE BEST!!


today,its our 6 months and 1 day that we've been tgt (:
happy but sad at the same time because we actually quarrelled over minor things like food on our anniversary ): hais..we bought a couple earring yesterday too!...(: yeah!...i love him (: i tink i do?..he came and look for me today but stayed outside my house as it was 3 plus in the morning (: it hurt my heart so much to see him so tired but he just wouldn't heed my advice to SLEEP EARLY no matter what..and this is actually wad i'm really furious about...literally,he refuses to spend the night in my house but nvm..i noe what difficulties he has..our quarrells are getting more and more again and i tink its time to make things clear..i spent our 6th month anniversary at his house and i really loved it,embraced in his arms and sleeping is really a feeling of warmth anf happiness to me..one which i will never want to forget and let go of...a happy memory for me and i suppose will be too for him..


today i went to watch movie with chyesen and carolyn at amk hub,we went to watch THE UNBORN!...then carolyn very funny,she keep on shout then pinch me hard hard cos she scared then i scared oso but i don dare hug carolyn cos she pinch me later..super pain lor!!...so become i grab chysen's arm,i tink i make until his arm red red lor..lols!..then i went to meet my boyfriend to go for another movie with his friends at donno where..watch the new chen long movie(: its like full of blood lor!...HAHAS!..then he angry me cos he actually wanted to tag along with me,carolyn and chysen to the movies but i don't want cos later i paiseh lar,later he go and find trouble with my friend again,i don like..bcos he is those kinda very 'chong dong' person ): sad sad!..nvm,i believe he will trust me fully someday bcos he loves me..RIGHT BABY?


I haven't had time to update out blog and i'm really sry for that!..aww..i very sad you noe?..because today we quarrell again,i noe u don't trust me one rite?..u only say so to make me feel happy..but i really don feel happy lor..its like you are putting on a mask in front of me lor..its like you let me do stuff that i want just because you don't want me to feel angry or sad so u agree to let me do so lor!..i really don't like it..because its not willing..if you have anything that u don't like me to do can u jus tell me?...i don't want that awkward scenerio to happen again,REALLY..but i'm really touched when u ran across the road to help me take my bag today (: i love you!..<3


today,we went to his house and replenished our sleep as we slept really late and i had dance before that,last night i had to finish my homework and my blogshop while his friends were at his house watching some movie hence,we both slept really late BUT obviously i slept later than him..i slept for only 2 hours and woke up to go to school feeling amazingly sober and awake with full of energy..my boyfriend went for 3 job interviews today which was why he had to wak up so early..BUT i tink that the outcome wasn't all that great..):
aniwae..GOOD LUCK MY DEAR!!..REALLY TIRED NOW!!


hais...today we never meet up AGAIN..we seem to be meeting up lesser and lesser..sianx..then he sleep like some pig..i actually wanted to have lunch or dinner with him but he woke up so late lor!..hais..and then he's watching some disc with his frens at his home now while i'm so bored at home..so sian!..i actually expected him to sleep early because he is having an interview for a job tmr morning but turns out that he is staying up late...sad fact ): i jus hope he can wake up early and not be late for his interview,hopefully..its all for his own good but he don understand why i want him to slp early but in whichever case it is,it still depends on him alone eventually so i shall not say anything more as it is all his decision weather to or not to do so..


today,i went to a movie with my boyfriend at orchard to watch SHOPAHOLIC!..it was super funny lar!..(: then we had an arguement before that because he was hungry and wanted to go eat first and i insisted on watching the 1.15pm show instead of the 2.30 one cos it was a super long wait for me..so i told him nvm nar,go eat lor go eat lor..then he don wan,then he will say i never tink bout him again..DIAOX..so we went to watch a movie where my heart felt with over-flowing love and warmth that came from him..so we went to the food court after the movie and then we argued again..because there really wasn't anything that i wanted to eat,and then i told him to go ahead without me but...HE SHOUTED AT ME and at that time i really felt like crying but i still swallowed my tears..and then told him i would eat the zwee kuey..then he buy for me..so we sat down and ate..then left to go his house and then he fetch me home(: i was supposed to meet my friends for a drink at 9pm but then i had sneak out and also by the time i reached they'd had left and then me and boyfriend quarrell AGAIN..3rd time of the day...omgg..tis time its really quite hard to explain..regardless,it's still another quarrell ): hais,then he called me after he reached his chalet with a honey-glib tongue but i really wasn't in the mood...I WAS SUPPPOSED TO BE ENJOYING MY NITE OUT!...and because of my mum,NO!..really annoyed by the fact and how i wish i was already 18 tis year then can get my first part of FREEDOM!...yes!..how i wish so..i would be a person who'd be free from this heavy load dragging me down and locking me in this poor pathetic home..like WADEVER!...


today,i feel very sad because i didn't get to meet my boyfriend!..hais..i tot that we will be spending our friday together at the movies with me being embraced in his arms of secure and love,watching the movie that would become another one of the sweet memories for us..but....end up that he forgot he had lion dance and so he went to his lion dance thingy,leaving me all alone,AGAIN...but its good that at least he called..yesterday he asked me to wake him up at 10am and so,i was in school at that time and called his phone at around 9.45am because i knew that he was A REALLY HEAVY SLEEPER!..but..i called and called from 9.45am all the way till 1pm but to no avail..i can't believe it man!..i even called his house phone for several times and his excuse?.."sry babii,i accidently off silent"...i was like??..if u're going to put silent then don ask me to wake u up larx..waste my time and my phone batt as i called all the way until my phone 'died' on me..plus..i was in school and despite the risk of my phone being confiscated i still called k?..and for your info,wasn't miss calls k?..i called until the no answer sign appeared k...altogether was 90+ calls larx!..OMGG!...hais..and then u tell me cannot meet last minute..aww man,was really looking forward to meeting u when u jus smashed my hopes and desires..CRYS!


today,we went out to yishun to have dinner and to collect the chocolates that i had bought online (: i like it when we walk side by side and hand in hand..one which i won't want to let go..does he noe that i really love him a lot?..hais,he used to put me in a very important position and let me have everything according to my wills but i see a little change in him recently..we used to have a lot of conversations with each other and everytime when i hang up without saying bye,he would call me back with much urgency and fear that i would be angry with something that he had said but i don see that happening anymore and i'm confused..it tells me a sad fact that i might not be as important in his heart as before..as he has stopped seeing me as an urgent part in his life and that urgency he had before has dissapeared through the time bit by bit..i remember the time when i was so frail and sick in the bed of mine,my body filled with much pain and felt so weak from the lack of food,lonely and sick in the dark solemn night while he was at the chalet.I tot that he would come and visit me or even bring me to the doctors to relive me from my dreadful fever but i was wrong,it was just my wishful thinking,he never knew how sad i felt at that time and how my heart felt as my eyes watered with much dissapointment,it was very sad indeed...SAD SAD!..


today i learnt that we are drifting further and further from each other..its like a thin sheet of ice slowly forming above the warm shallow waters tat represents our passion for each other...is this a sign that our love is slowly fading?..or is it because we have learnt to love each other in our hearts and have slowly stabilised this relationship?..will he be the one that can capture my heart in his hands so tightly that i will never fly away or even drop onto the ground and break into a million pieces,leaving pain and agony for me and only me to heal my own wounds created by him?...i really wonder but i trust and i believe he,too,will trust that we will never hurt each other (:


today,i realise that i really do love him more than i used to.i loved him for the things he do for me,letting me crawl over his head even when i'm in the wrong and always trying to give in to me in every possible way (: ....as time passes by and day by day the sun rises from the clouds in the morning and dives back to rest in the night,i can feel our relationship slowly strenghthen and feelings grow strong for one another.He never failed to let me have my way despite him being angry over certain issues and he really dotes on me like a little girl such that i slowly feel warmth and secure under his wings of care and tender love (: if he happens to see this post,i want him to noe that i will always love him and trust him with all i have (:
BABY!...I LOVE YOU! <3